I... I understand that. I feel just the same. [Ankari feel conflicted that at his age he doesn't have this all figured out. Forty-five is not a time to be so unsure, so new to this. He's been touch starved all his life, though. The only people willing to touch him were those healers of the castle who needed to keep him held together. It was intimate, but in the way a doctor is intimate, not the way a lover is.
He wants to exude control of himself just as Tyler does, to express maturity suitable of the grown man that he is. Eagerness has a discomfort to it, like a garment that doesn't fit neatly upon the frame of manliness. Yet, there is nothing strong about being distant, cold, or unwilling with a sex partner.
Ankari shakes his mind from those thoughts when he's moving with Tyler, pulling himself around and overtop of the young man. It is his turn to dote a line down Tyler's neck and collar, peppering kisses in a trail to the center of his chest, moving further down with each press of lips. His hands press to Tyler's knees and then slip down his inner thighs as he parts the man's legs to fit between. The sight of him so aroused, stiff and dripping wet from a previous orgasm, practically knock the air out of Ankari.]
How did I get so lucky coming here... [he meant to just think this, but ends up muttering it aloud in his lowest voice. Tyler can't be the only one between them being embarrassing moment-to-moment]
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He wants to exude control of himself just as Tyler does, to express maturity suitable of the grown man that he is. Eagerness has a discomfort to it, like a garment that doesn't fit neatly upon the frame of manliness. Yet, there is nothing strong about being distant, cold, or unwilling with a sex partner.
Ankari shakes his mind from those thoughts when he's moving with Tyler, pulling himself around and overtop of the young man. It is his turn to dote a line down Tyler's neck and collar, peppering kisses in a trail to the center of his chest, moving further down with each press of lips. His hands press to Tyler's knees and then slip down his inner thighs as he parts the man's legs to fit between. The sight of him so aroused, stiff and dripping wet from a previous orgasm, practically knock the air out of Ankari.]
How did I get so lucky coming here... [he meant to just think this, but ends up muttering it aloud in his lowest voice. Tyler can't be the only one between them being embarrassing moment-to-moment]