Yes, Jin Guangyao understands precisely what that means.
"Sect leader," he repeats faintly and allows his hands to at last fall fully to his sides. He stares at Huaisang as though he is looking right through him, past him, into a time and place far, far removed from the one they occupy now. He sees himself flung down the steps of Jinlintai, looks up through a veil of his own blood at Nie Mingjue standing at the top of those stairs. He sees Baxia unsheathed, seconds before Lan Xichen arrives to place himself between Jin Guangyao and certain death once more.
There is a page of sheet music hidden away in the annals of his memory; he destroyed the page itself as soon as he'd read it, to avoid further implicating Lan Xichen in what he'd planned to do. He hasn't had the time to put it to use, not yet, but after that day--
"How did Da-ge...?" he starts to ask, but can't make himself finish the question. Belatedly he realizes Huaisang has asked him a question, and so he answers with, "It is still Jin Guangyao." He fought hard for that courtesy name; he won't be parted from it now.
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"Sect leader," he repeats faintly and allows his hands to at last fall fully to his sides. He stares at Huaisang as though he is looking right through him, past him, into a time and place far, far removed from the one they occupy now. He sees himself flung down the steps of Jinlintai, looks up through a veil of his own blood at Nie Mingjue standing at the top of those stairs. He sees Baxia unsheathed, seconds before Lan Xichen arrives to place himself between Jin Guangyao and certain death once more.
There is a page of sheet music hidden away in the annals of his memory; he destroyed the page itself as soon as he'd read it, to avoid further implicating Lan Xichen in what he'd planned to do. He hasn't had the time to put it to use, not yet, but after that day--
"How did Da-ge...?" he starts to ask, but can't make himself finish the question. Belatedly he realizes Huaisang has asked him a question, and so he answers with, "It is still Jin Guangyao." He fought hard for that courtesy name; he won't be parted from it now.