The part of Joan that is attracted to women is generally compartmentalized somewhere in her hindbrain to save her embarrassment-- she knows she's no prize, and women, she assumes, are harsher critics than men. Anyway, it's not like she's gay, she sleeps with men too, and most of the time. It's just easier. A lot of Joan's life is dedicated to finding the easier path.
But now, that compartment unlocks, and she studies Peony with new eyes. Yeah, she's dirty and disheveled, but if she wasn't, Joan would likely be intimidated by her easy femininity. What Joan sees is a pretty face, a hopeful expression-- she sees someone who cares about Joan's approval, and that feeds Joan's ego.
"You can just say it, y'know." A yes with judgement means Joan stays in control. "D'you have, like, your own place in town? I gotta share with other people."
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The part of Joan that is attracted to women is generally compartmentalized somewhere in her hindbrain to save her embarrassment-- she knows she's no prize, and women, she assumes, are harsher critics than men. Anyway, it's not like she's gay, she sleeps with men too, and most of the time. It's just easier. A lot of Joan's life is dedicated to finding the easier path.
But now, that compartment unlocks, and she studies Peony with new eyes. Yeah, she's dirty and disheveled, but if she wasn't, Joan would likely be intimidated by her easy femininity. What Joan sees is a pretty face, a hopeful expression-- she sees someone who cares about Joan's approval, and that feeds Joan's ego.
"You can just say it, y'know." A yes with judgement means Joan stays in control. "D'you have, like, your own place in town? I gotta share with other people."